I turned 48 on December 10 , 2018. It’s hard for me to get on board with the fact that I am a …… Grown up. I mean , what the fuck ? Fortunately , I was able to break free from the boundaries that society places on us all. It took some time , and it wasn’t easy.
My decision to live my life the way I want was not an easy one to make. The follow through was even harder. Some sacrifices were made and there are things that I lost I will never get back. No one died as a result of coming out of the kinky closet. Even still because of what I did lose inorder to live free , I feel like I have to make to most of my choice.
I don’t want the vanilla’s getting confused. I’m not going to sport my strap on in public and peg unsuspecting male pedestrians. I won’t tie myself to a light pole and invite anyone that ventures to close to spank my naughty little ass. You probably won’t even be able to tell that I’m a freak if you see me on the subway. Unless I’m on my way to a kink convention and I have my boy on a leash sitting at my feet. Even then no one has to fear for their safety. Just because I am kinky does not mean I’ll violate/be violated by anyone and everyone. This is where so many people get confused. People that hurt other people are that way for a plethora of reasons but not one is that way because I get tied up and flogged in the privacy of my own bedroom.
Now that , hopefully , I’ve laid some neurotic fears to rest , this is what I want to do. I want to give the lifestyle a voice. I want to enlighten the ignorant and educate the uneducated. Since I found the lifestyle and have been open and honest about who I am , I have had less anxiety and more confidence about myself and my direction. I believe that the is a factor in the lives of many that are depressed , unmotivated , and alone. Maybe I’m wrong but that was how I felt before I found a community that brought me back to life. How wonderful if the knowledge I have could do that for just one person !!!
Now I don’t want to imply that I have some sort of education myself. I have a L.P.N. and that’s a far as I went in school. The game of life has been kind to me and I listen and sometimes remember what works for me and I if what I know helps someone then hell yeah.
So I blog and I attempt to grow my audience and I shower rinse repeat. I go to munches , demos , play parties , and events.
I’m already brewing my next post , and I am now ready to rest my 48 year old bones and sleep like the dead , dream the dreams of a princess , and be a better person tomorrow than I was today.