Time to look at myself a bit

I believe when we stop learning we stop growing. I strive to be a better person each day.

Wait …. maybe strive each day is a little exaggeration …..let me rephrase

I want to be a good person , I want to make my loved ones happy and I want to be happy. I’m also lazy and selfish and a little hard headed.

 

I do make an honest attempt to look at my fucked up behavior , say yep that’s fucked up and I did that fucked up shit. I will be more diligent at not being fucked up in the future.

This is much easier said than done. Goodness knows I don’t ever want to admit my beautiful brain has some fucked up thinking. If I don’t , I’ll be stuck and I don’t want to be stuck. I watched my father stuck in an unhappy marriage , I watched my mother stuck at a horrible job , my sister is stuck to herself. My dad was able to escape the marriage and he gave me hope that I did not have to stay stuck either ….. mother and sister , they will sink right where they are.

 

I don’t think I am any better than anyone even those that are stuck. I do think I’m happier and wish the stuck ones could be too. I won’t be around judgement , blame , and favoritism ever again in my life.

I’m going to run naked in the streets til someone throws a shoe at me…..hahaha